When life appears to be dishing out more than my fair share (“fair“- bahahahaha🤣-as if there even was such a thing!) of difficult issues and situations presenting as massively challenging mountains to be scaled, I remind myself (upon finishing my sonuvabitching, of course)

I signed up for this.

I wanted and selected it– almost as if it was simply a box I checked on a menu of services available at a lavish spa.

☑ Ultimate lesson-learner package:

For those who are seeking advanced enlightenment, depth, and understanding of life and love on Earth in human form through immensely difficult and often heartbreaking lessons. Choosers of this package accept that they may possess increased sensitivity of psyche to everything and everyone, which will frequently be misunderstood and repeatedly chastised in a world often harboring great insensitivity. This is a package for those looking to fully grasp and appreciate the capacity, depth, and strength of the human spirit that can only be afforded through the multitude of hard-won lessons required in doing so. Those who choose this package are guaranteed that the people, issues, and situations necessary to instill Ultimate Lesson Learning will be provided. COMPLETELY.

Now, does the earthly me here in my person suit generally “feel” like what I want most is to learn any lesson besides those that may involve me soaking up sun on a sparkling beach, or perhaps lounging in a dream library the likes of the one in Beauty and The Beast while sipping on endless gourmet coffee or a chilled martini or two? My spirit would say endless martinis as well but my aging body tells me otherwise and it calls the shots…🤣That was an accidental pun on my part, but I love it! Now let’s circle back:

Of course my earthly self thinks it wants ease. By my essential, spiritual self knows otherwise.

I choose to believe that the energetic force that beats deeply within me and understands the depth of my capacity and stamina of soul decided that the intention for me this go-round on Earth was more significant than what the earthly me can comprehend logically and therefore checked the Ultimate lesson-learner box for a reason.

Can I provide proof of this?

No.

I don’t choose to believe it because it’s been proven. I believe it because through believing I had a hand in choosing what I’m experiencing

I BECOME EMPOWERED. RESILIENT. STOIC.

providing the “fuel” necessary to power me through anything that I might not “logically” believe I have the wherewithal to pull off on my own. Which let me tell you, has become increasingly necessary as of late, but I digress…

And while there is a part of this that may sound pure woo, in actuality it’s more than that. It’s about choosing your thoughts in a manner that afford one a sense of agency, providing the stamina necessary in building the initial muscle required to build additional muscle.

The “muscle” that reminds me that the very life situations which may frighten, confuse, sadden, excite, exhaust, delight, anger, bewilder, entrance, engage, demand, provoke, etc… are not a personal affront to my being. They are intended for me to TAKE SOMETHING VALUABLE FROM.

They are a gift.

And upon reminding myself of this, I eventually shut my mouth, open my eyes, ready my state of being, and prepare for the lessons willingly.

After all, I did sign up for them.